crap i haven been blogging for a long long time. looks like no one reads my blog anyway. :( yupps so one week had past. and many many things happened. all the stress flew by so quickly. happiness flew by quickly too. and all the heartbreaks flew. but one came back today though. eeee-yerrr! haha. new phrase.

so yupyup. chinese new year celebration tomorrow! wheee! gonna watch memoirs with cs after that. yupps. crap lah. all the booking tickets shit. if you cant go/dont feel like going then tell me! grr. just hanged up the phone with ____ and yes i'm uber pissed. she's damn bloody irresponsible can. and i can blog bout this here cause i'm sure she doesnt read. teehee. xD so yeah. airi lost my calculator and stuff. she dunno which class i'm in, dump on the wrong pearlyn's table. like what is this man. u borrow something from someone gotta return personally! omg lah. and now i gotta pay for the calculator myself. so TSK please. cause my mum and airi doesnt wanna pay. the world is just so unfair please. sorry if i've offended anyone here. but yea, this is like the only place i can show my fustrations. since no one reads it anyway.


and yes! today was a busy busy day. council bbq, loads of stuff to plan. quite fun! but tiring. and can u imagine me staying in the mpr in the dark at night? i'm uber scared. so if u sont see me out eh. hmmm. okay it's freakin scary cause i'm in my room all alone now and it's 9++pm? crap.


today also had to go buy yu sheng for enterprise bonding! wahahaha. it was uber great! cause yx suddenly got lessons till 2.45, and chucky got pbl till like 3?!?! all thanks to lau's mum for dropping me off at dawson place ntuc to get those stuff! but crap! the things there were like serving 4-6 people only. and so i took 33 all the way to tiong. and crap. they dont have it either! took 33 back to dawson, den i took 970 to great world. finally man. they got great stuff (: and yx and chucky finally arrived. ate my lunch only at like 3++ lah. urgh. and so went back to sch. had loads of fun lohei-ing. (: we wished mt to get babies soon. and yf was like why u keep hiding behind yx and yuqi? so she can see that i'm very uncomfortable with mt around. and yupps. i was told to open up more. and she said that if i'm uncomfortable, mt will be uncomfortable too! and she will like drift away from me. and i dont want that to happen! ): crap why am i still thinking of her? i'm supposed to get my feelings of her alrdy. hmm. so maybe theres still some left afterall. SOME only. tsk. xD


and yeah. so i must get more self confidence, dont be so self conscious. and to open up more and more friendly! not just laugh laugh. ): shit. so i've been like that all these while? i bet she knows bout it. and it might be too late to change afterall! heck care. gonna try and open up more. i still got 1 year left.


thought of the day: open up more. be more comfortable around her. waiting for my marche treat! xDD hurhur. i'm now doing the hangman essay and it sucks please. =X crap. i dont understand wth is that person taalking bout! and u still want me to write the feelings of the narrator. omg i can just go and die.

so yupps. there's enterprise tmr. can't wait. there'll be new new NEW sec ones! and they have like attitude prob. tsktsk. those guaier ones better get in. nothing much today, except for that freakin zuowen i was supposed to do. and to get like 5 bonus points i gotta hand in by 5pm. great la! so i stayed back till like 5. borrowed dictionary and realised that the dictionary is advanced and it's omg. so hard to use! but i finished my zuowen on decribing emotions! yayness. (:

wahahaha. was blog hopping and just found someone who has the exact same name as me! okay fine, not the exact same name, chinese name was different though. but yupps! same name! :D crap la. we look totally different. how i wish i was like that. -.- wahahah. it's now the 3rd week of school and omg i finally got one day of rest with absoutly no homework! hmm .okay. maybe not, i haven finished that piece of ying yong wen which is due tmr, but actually the weekend's hw. pifff.


crap lah. after history test today, met jane and ruth at the staircase and yupp, decided to go to tiong macs for catching up session. haha. realised that loads have changed. like how the people around us changed, some for better, some for LOADS worse (u know who i'm talking bout), and some just didnt change at all! ta-da!


found out that i'm not the only miserable pathatic one who acutally can't really adapt to my new class yet! pifff. and there's like loads of things going on i dont even have the freakin time to on my tablet. argh. like i suddenly realised that my obsession is coming back (omg help!), and that my eyecandy is sorta daoing me. and my eyecandy grew older 0.o


omg damn. this yr sec1s wanting to join enterprise are all like damn attitude please. i think we're gonna have a hard time interviewing them. practically all need to be kicked. tsk tsk. just really hoping for the better man.


so yupp. this is my recent post. wonder when i can actually gonna update my life again. cause really busy with studies, enterprise (mama shop & sec1 training), council, class, planning cs outings, friends, rciy. yupps.


<3ing ya loads. hurhur. life pass so fast that it's alrdy the 2nd week of school! wahaha. i cant say that sec 3 life is fun. in fact it's quite boring and nerdy lah. just study and study. 2 languages, 2 maths, 2 science, 2 humanities. like wth please. and we get 2 more periods of assembly, pe and cme. that's all! gahhh. so pathatic sia. and the time spent in class is getting longer and longer. and the clock ticks so slowly. pifff.


yupp. so campfire is now over. it turned out really bad. BAD. haha. all i can say is that from my batch onwards, the sec1s coming to crescent are turning worse and worse. this year's batch majority got attitude prob one lah! like wth please. ok. i'm not saying ALL. but MOST. and yupp if u so happen to be a sec1 reading this blog and u dont have attitude, den i'm so sorry i accuse you or what so ever. i'm kindaff pmsy nowadays.. my sitting partner is so irritating lah. grr. she likes to poke me during lesson time. and yeah. i get very pissed off by her.


now the things i have on hand are like class, enterprise and council. i'm like damn worried for council lah. i wonder what is gonna happen this yr. enterprise sec3s gotta train the sec1s and the cca open house is like coming nearer and nearer. and jsut now welly told me something bout my ahem in the hospital. omg i really hope nothing will happen to her. i'm like damn worried now. doubt i can sleep tonight.


shit. tmr height and weight. i think i'm like overly overweight. crap. i really dont want tmr to come.


I MISS CS! every single one of the 6 of you! i miss 2s1! ALL the 38 of you! crap. trying really hard to get used to my new new friends. <3

woohoo i'm getting free tuition from lizard tme. :D urgh. so school started today and it was freakin messy lah! 1st gotta chiong to school and to realise that there's a traffic jam and i got stuck on the 111 bus outside the gate! URGH. and to make things worst, they re-allocated the positions of the classes lah! and i gotta climb more stairs.

and after that chiong all the way down to the mini forum for some council thingy. and i tootily got this placecard for 2s2. and yupp i was happy! (: 1st thing in the morning i got to see my eyecandy. HAHA. and i was so glad that this year i was able to get my mind off her at last and i was jumping around lah!... until...

we went back to class and phyllis pham was our form teacher. haha. it's okay lah. she's nice. (: and my class might be the luckiest class though. although i'm still like freakin afraid cause i dont know the new people in my class. and i'm like sticking round all the people i know 1st. yupp. so basically i met my amaths teacher, mr loh, chem teacher, mrs chia sk, pure lit teacher ms sharon goh, chi teacher ms tan sh.

omg. i think i'm jinxed and cursed for life or something lah. fated or some shit. grr. i cant believe what i saw around the last period of the day lah. and all thanks to grace for showing it to me. TSK. yupp so anyway, many say it's fate and blah. and i think so too. how come it's so coincedential? WTH CAN. crap la.

and now i'm scared of school. scared of unable to mix and have friends. urgh. i am dreading school. and now my eyecandy shit? i thought it was getting out of my head lah! and now u do this kind of thing to me! AH! giving her back again. crap please. yoyo. many things happened this few days la. i know i haven been updating for a long long long long time. like 1 week ++. but that doesn't mean that i wont be updating ever again rite? HAHA. :D so yupp. let's see where i've stopped. oh. the reason why i haven been able to get online and blog is because my mum didnt allow me to touch my tablet... provided i finish my hw. grahhh. and my hw is only half-done still. and SCHOOL'S REOPENING TOMORROW!!! -freak-


dammit la. i dowwan to go to schoooool! -whines- haha i know whining is a very irritating habit but still. grahh. i dowan to go to school! like there's so many things to re-adapt to. and i'm so sick of re-adapting to the freakin environment. it's so hard for me to find this clique la. and now what? we are all gonna seperate and make new friends all over again!?!?! TSK.


and i'm so afraid i have like no friends in my new class la. and that the teachers are mean and evil. and that i got loads of undone things to do. and thinking of undone things, i get so pissed and arrrghh. i just dowwan to go to sch! omg.


fine. so enough of my whining and back to reality man. xmas had just passed. well, not really. but yeah. that's where i've stopped blooging from! so xmas had just passed, received many goodies. special thanks to steph, tim, rod, dadang :D, yanting, linghui, eleanor :), and everyone who wished me merry xmas! hohoho. xmas mass was like so totally cool. i bet it was the best one ever. now i got this sense of belonging. (:


ok. so xmas over yay happy. and soon it's the NEW YEAR! XD wanted to go and countdown. but my mum realised that there's gonna be many many people. so yupp in the end went to my aunt's house and reached there at 11.56. watched gurmit on teeeveee before staring out of the balcony and WHOA. i think it was so much nicer than going to marina lah. i could see the fireworks from 3 places! yay! (: haha my ego self is rising. -pushes it back down-



so let me recap on the year 2005. i shall start with SCHOOL LIFE 1st. haha.
hmm. basically my school life this year was kindaff fun! and i learnt many things!

MY EYECANDY:
gained lotsa learning experiences from that one particular person. i learnt bout falling in love. i learnt bout gettign sick of love. i learnt bout how to let go and continue my own life. she has her life. and i have mine. so yupp. my eyecandy. and i just ended this chapter of my life. and began a new one. BUT it's still nice having her around. guiding me, and smsing me if i haven reached home. hmm. but yupp, i've decided to stop writing info down into my small little organiser. and just let things be.

STUDIES:
omg. my studies were like shit this year. i realised i spent too much time on things which i shouldnt spend on. and yupp. i'm gonna work hard for everything this year! no more nonsense. just like focus on o's. grahh. i'm gonna be turned into a nerd soon man. but fret not. i'm still gonna enjoy life and HAVE FUN! (: i'm gonna work like doubley hard lah. not only on my languages and humans which i'm sorta better at. i'm gonna chiong my science and maths! haha. ying2, jingyi! i need your help! =P

CCAs:
my cca life was terribly bad this year. starting of the year i mean. i'm REALLY HAPPY that i finally managed to change my cca. now i'm in enterprise club! :D hohoho. it must have been the best thing which had happened to me last year man! (: so yeah. i'm trying to get into the enterprise ________ next year. haha go figure out that word yourself. just count the number of __s. aniwae. in order to get that i must like strive for the best! no more slacking. no more nonsense. woohoo!

FRIENDS:
this must have been the thing which had caused me the most heartbreaks last year. from cliques to cliques. i jumped and jumped, like the frog jumping around lah. but i'm really grateful for having found such a nice nice nice nice NICE wonderful group of us. who share the same common interests and stuff. and we enjoyed all the fun together! woohoo! charcoal sketches. it had always been staring in my face ever since i was sec 1 lah. i just din see it. finally. the year ended sweet. but still, we are gonna split this year. i really cant bear to see you go.



now it's time for PERSONAL LIFE!

FAMILY:
haha. loads of quarrels, loads of fun. learnt how to communicate with my mum. yupp. i <3 everyone in my family! all except... lol.


RCIY:
omg. it had really been wild this year. rollercoaster ride for me. the start turned out sweet. yet last last month something happened which changed my life. dear cindy left after camp. and ada's gonna be leaving next year. i dont think i'm ready for this biggest thing that's gonna happen in my life yet. my mum is not approving it. and i really dont noe what to do. i'm just gonna think bout it. talk. and wait for things to happen.



YUPP. that's all. which happened to me last year. this year, i'm gonna be a busy piece of shit. my life will revolve in school, cca, council, family, church. with the parish coming up with new new ideas for next year, i'm really gonna be BUSY. =/ and enterprise. sec 1 training thingy. and like sec3s are gonna be chosen for many many competitions. haha. i really hope i can get into the competitions though. (: and school. omg. new friends. new class. new teachers. new subjects. shit la. i really need time to get used to everything. and yeah. basically just liddat. and council! omg. exco. haha. i'm trying hard to get in. woooooops. gonna think of ideas man.


so my new year resolutions are...
-lose more weight
-grow taller
-be a better person! :D
-love the people around me more!
-always be close to _______
-stop biting my fingernails!
-to tresure all the friends i have.
-to treasure all the good friends i have MORE MORE.
-make new friends and socialise.
-keep my life busy so i wont think of ahem
-help out in enterprise MORE! and be utterly committed to enterprise.
-help out in council MORE! and be utterly committed to council.
-dedicate my time to my class MORE! and be utterly committed to whateva class committee position i have. and even if i dont, i will help out MORE MORE!
-help out at rciy MORE MORE! and be utterly committed to rciy! helping everyone, making friends, no enemies. and have MORE fun along the way!
-be utterly committed to everything and yet still have time left for myself. :D



and that's gonna be the biggest achievement ever. if i ever complete all my resolutions! yupp. (:






and poof! reality is gonna start all over again tomorrow morning. ):